I just can't

I can't pretend that everything is okay. I can't go to school feeling comfortable, I can't be perfect, Look perfect or act perfect. In other words I can't pretend to be a fake.

I can't be the real me because society will just judge me and bring me down.

I wear make-up because it helps my self confidence grow. To me it feels like I'm putting on a mask of confidence. I know I am covering up my real face, but that's because no one sticks around to see the FULL me. You don't know what its like to have friends with "Natural Beauty". They are so beautiful WITHOUT make-up and then there's me. A girl trying to get threw the day with a smile.

Being a girl is really hard. Society tells everyone what is beautiful and whats not.

Apparently beautiful is skinny girls with medium length of hair, light complected with long eye lashes and dazzling eyes or whatever.

When did the personality, friendliness , caring not matter anymore? 

Instead its all sex, drugs and money.

I don't smoke never have and never will.

I also never drank a sip of beer or wine in my entire life.

I never had sex or abused my money by buying stupid things like porn magazines or cigarettes.

Girls like myself who don't have sex, smoke, or drink.

God believers, body respecters and friendly strangers still exist in the world.

But if people now a days care about appearance and weight and other judgmental things.

Then I would rather be a lonely loser then surrounded by tons of fakers who don't even care about me.